5/6/13 Update

Last week I noticed I had a bicep.  Just my right one (apparently the one in my left arm is too small to.discern through the fat) but its my first muscle.  Not really of course but my first visible one. 

I've realized water aerobics is, like anything else, what you make of it.  Tonight I hit it hard and can definitely feel it.  Here's to more muscles popping out. 

3/9/13 Weigh-In

359# which equals 1.6 lost.  Problems this week:

Falling back unto the sugar trap
Only exercised once
Relative lack of meal planning

One thing I'll do this week to be more successful: get active. 

Angela

3/2/13 Weigh-In

370.6#   Trying hard not to beat myself up over this number.  Highest weight ever.  Starting point. 

Stop Fooling Around and Just Get On With It

So its 1:16am.  In 8 hours I'm going to walk into a Weight Watchers meeting.  

In 46 years, the only weightloss success I've ever had was on WW.  10 years ago I was 303# and was looking down the barrell of a family trip.  I was scared to death the seatbelt wouldn't fasten and, in front of my ex and our young daughter, I'd be outed as a fat person and kicked off the plane.   Terror, and replacing my horrible Coca Cola habbit with a Diet Pepsi one, helped me lose 40#   That seatbelt closed with two inches to spare. 

Fast forward 10 years, nearly 100#, 1 knee replacement, and I'm feeling old, decrepit and desperate.   I've spent a wonderful 5 years with someone I would very much like to spend the next 50+ years with.  50 years of loving and living.  Travel, activity, not being old and broken down. 

So in the morning I begin the journey to the rest of my life.  I'm scared to death, but if I don't succeed death is what will surely find me. 

Onward muthafuckas. 

The true definition of madness is repeating the same action, over and over, hoping for a different result." - Albert Einstein

First day of that new start ...

So the holiday weekend is over.  Thank goodness.  Too much crap, too little activity, too much just sitting around and "visiting".  Don't get me wrong, visiting is nice but when its just co-dependently reinforcing bad behaviors its not good.  Here are some pictures taken of me over the weekend:

Ugh but it is what it is.  Am I a bad friend for not approving the tag request on Facebook for these? 

Anyhow, off to a new start.  Logged today's meals/snacks.  Chugging water.  Plan to walk the dogs tonight after work which will provide some much-needed exercise.  Chugging more water and trying not to think about the sodas which I've gotten back into drinking AGAIN.  Just printed the YMCA's pool schedule so I can plan my workouts for the remainder of the week. 

I did have one non-scale victory this week.  On Saturday we went to Harpers Ferry, WV where we walked the hills and did a bit of shopping.  While we didn't end up staying or walking around as much as I would has liked - it was far too hot and humid and after about an hour we made our escape! - I had zero problem walking the hills.  The last time we were there was 3 1/2 years ago, before my knee replacement.  That visit was so difficult and painful as my left knee was in very bad shape.  This time my knees both felt completely fine and more than up to the task of walking the Harpers Ferry sidewalks.  I'll take that victory :)

Angela

Rock.Bottom?

I've been gaining weight all summer.  No matter how many "fresh starts" I've given myself, the numbers on the scale have kept creeping up.  This morning I finally got the dreaded E on the digital scale - over the 350# scale limit.  I'm so humiliated and feel so out of control and just scattered if that makes sense.  I don't want to continue living my life like this.