The true definition of madness is repeating the same action, over and over, hoping for a different result." - Albert Einstein

First day of that new start ...

So the holiday weekend is over.  Thank goodness.  Too much crap, too little activity, too much just sitting around and "visiting".  Don't get me wrong, visiting is nice but when its just co-dependently reinforcing bad behaviors its not good.  Here are some pictures taken of me over the weekend:

Ugh but it is what it is.  Am I a bad friend for not approving the tag request on Facebook for these? 

Anyhow, off to a new start.  Logged today's meals/snacks.  Chugging water.  Plan to walk the dogs tonight after work which will provide some much-needed exercise.  Chugging more water and trying not to think about the sodas which I've gotten back into drinking AGAIN.  Just printed the YMCA's pool schedule so I can plan my workouts for the remainder of the week. 

I did have one non-scale victory this week.  On Saturday we went to Harpers Ferry, WV where we walked the hills and did a bit of shopping.  While we didn't end up staying or walking around as much as I would has liked - it was far too hot and humid and after about an hour we made our escape! - I had zero problem walking the hills.  The last time we were there was 3 1/2 years ago, before my knee replacement.  That visit was so difficult and painful as my left knee was in very bad shape.  This time my knees both felt completely fine and more than up to the task of walking the Harpers Ferry sidewalks.  I'll take that victory :)

Angela

Rock.Bottom?

I've been gaining weight all summer.  No matter how many "fresh starts" I've given myself, the numbers on the scale have kept creeping up.  This morning I finally got the dreaded E on the digital scale - over the 350# scale limit.  I'm so humiliated and feel so out of control and just scattered if that makes sense.  I don't want to continue living my life like this. 

Back to the grind after a fun (and food)-filled weekend spent with friends visiting from out of town.  Way too much food that was not eaten in moderation, way too many Mike's Hard Limes (the extent of my alcohol drinking ever), way too much.  Arrived at work this morning with a packed lunch, am pounding the water, and just gonna get through a late day at the office practicing that moderation stuff I'm working on. 

The weekend was pretty bad but my goal for the week is to have maintained last week's weight when I weigh in Friday morning.  To achieve that goal I'm logging my food and exercising 2x this week. 

Angela

Wow I'm really doing this ...

I've done this so many times .. the infamous restart. Restart on weight loss. Restart on diet, restart on fitness, restart on LIFE. I've done this more times than I could possibly count in my 45 years. I've even started a blog a few times, thinking well if I commit to it in public I have to DO it, but I've never done more than 1 post.


So, to a new beginning. No judgments on those which have come before, just celebrating a new one.

Most weight loss bloggers ... I hate that term. Lets call this a "getting my act together and getting my ass healthy" blog, okay? Okay, so most bloggers of this type post their before pictures. I intend to have my mate take a before picture for me, but for now I'll just post a candid one from last summer. Its burned in my brain. Here it is ...

This picture is named "awful" for a reason. It explains fully how I felt when I saw it posted to Facebook by a friend. How is it possible that this is how the rest of the world sees me when I see me like this ...

Yeah, a major disconnect is obviously at work here.


Anyhow, this is my beginning point. Well, the first picture is. The second picture is someone elses midway point, but my goal is the self-confidence that exudes from that picture. My midway point will have that same self-confidence and strength and maybe, just maybe, that smirking tiny little smile when I see the old me trying to take over again. That woman can say, yeah bring it baby, I've got this. That's the woman I aim to be.


More to come. And if anyone is reading this and you don't see more coming, call me on it.


Angela